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Oklahoma City, Oklahoma - a cross country journey midway [May. 30th, 2012|10:00 am]
Just jotting down a few thoughts before I forget...

Friday
We left Birmingham crack of dawn on Friday, Flannery, Lucy, and Norah, and made our way to Milledgeville, Georgia, home of Flannery O'Connor. I would like to say it was a holy experience, treading the grounds of Flannery O'Connor's home, but in the 100 degree heat we were not our best ourselves. Only Olive, the wiener dog, was her best self and very happy to be in Milledgeville. There is a picture of her smiling next to our own Flannery who sits on a bench, utterly jet-lagged, staggered by the blanket of humidity, and the assault of mother and sisters and packed car. However, it was lovely to be inside her home and to see where she wrote. I buried some pennies in the red dirt for friends who requested it, and then we drove to Atlanta. Actually, Flannery drove for about thirty minutes on a tiny highway of tractors and trucks until I cried mercy and took the wheel again.

We met Allison Anders at Fox Brothers BBQ in Five Points, and she made us our better selves again. She's in Atlanta filming the June Carter Cash movie for Lifetime and described location scouting, the music, the story of the June Carter, and learning the geography of Atlanta. The barbeque after a day of jellybeans and blueberries made us sane again, and Flannery drove us to Chattanooga without a hitch with Norah reading him his speeds by the minute on the GPS. Allison became a grandmother the next day, and what a lucky baby that little girl is...Allison imbues people with love and stories, and it was a much needed and hopeful sign for the cross country journey to share our first meal with her.

Saturday
We stayed with Lucy's boyfriend's family, Trent Cresswell, and it was a lovely visit to Chattanooga. We ate breakfast at the Blue Plate and then made our way to the Aquarium and just soaked up everything from seahorses to sharks to penguins, relishing the cool blue darkness and then the butterfly pavilion in hot yellow light, although the butterflies seemed scarce that day. A sign warned of removing butterflies, and I had to wonder - Do people really pocket butterflies on the way out?

That night, because of Flannery's love for the Dodgers, Jinger, Trent's sweet mother got us tickets to the Chattanooga Lookouts, the Dodgers Double A Team, and he saw his favorite pitcher pitch an inning before getting called up to the Dodgers the next day. The pitcher struck out three in a row, and I'd ask Flannery who he was but he's sleeping. A puppeteer named, Christopher, did amazing dances with his Village People Puppets to "Macho Man" and "YMCA" during the different innings, and there was a frozen T-shirt contest where guys had to dress as quickly as possibly in frozen t-shirts. It was a fraction the size of a Dodger game, which is why I think I enjoyed it so much.

Sunday
We left for Nashville after a sad good-bye for Trent and Lucy as Trent is spending his junior year in Chicago at a theatre working as a playwright-in-residence, and Lucy is heading back to Sarah Lawrence for her senior year. Weirdly enough, I had to say a Chattanooga good-bye to my first boyfriend way back in the dark ages in 1981 when he broke up with me to enter the priesthood, but Trent's coming to LA in August so we can show him the sights. We stopped in Sewanee to take pictures as the kids spent so many summers on Monteagle Mountain, and it made me remember my favorite interview with a stonecutter named Houston King. Finally, we made our way down the mountain and on into Nashville to visit the relatives. Flannery had an audition to upload online for a film, and it was decided that we would not leave Nashville until this mission was accomplished. 

Monday
It dawned hot hot hot in Nashville, so we did the only sensible thing. We went to the movies to see the Best Exotic Marigold Hotel, which I enjoyed very much. Norah was the youngest in attendance on Memorial Day, but she loved it too and found Maggie Smith to be her favorite. It was a gentle movie and just to be swept up in India eased my head.

Tuesday
In the morning with Lucy filming and me reading the girl part off camera, Flannery did a great audition after a couple of hours of filming, which he uploaded and so we were on the road by afternoon. We took a picture outside of Loretta Lynn's Dude Ranch and discovered a low tire outside of Bucksnort, Arkansas - fingers-crossed it won't mean too much for the rest of the trip. We filled it with air and hoped for the best. I drove about six hours and then Flannery took the wheel and we went through Ozark, Arkansas to find a barbeque place we'd been to years earlier, but it closed at 8:00. Then it was onto Alma at the Cracker Barrel, and then we aimed for Oklahoma City, which was a challenge because we hit a thunderstorm that lashed out mean and hard lasted most of the way to Oklahoma City. It was the Northern Lights only with lightning and hail and thunder...Flannery drove and said it was like playing the most intense video game of his life without a reset button. Before the storm Lucy read to us from MIDDLESEX, but when the storm hit we just watch the sky stunned.

Wednesday
Now the breakfast bar is almost over - time to rustle them up to eat. Olive is being a very quiet undercover dog here in Oklahoma City, meekly gnawing a bone. We hope to make it to Albuquerque by night. It's remarkable to be on a road trip with my three kids...heading home to Los Angeles after my third year teaching in Alabama.

The best quote of the trip? My mother-in-law, Frances, said, "He has so many wonderful qualities. Wonder what he's saving them for?"

Okay time to pack up and hide Olive in the Atlanta Falcons bag for two minutes to dash to the parking lot. The Atlanta Falcons bag has traveled far and wide from China and back and hails from the days when my dad was coaching for them.
More updates soon...At Sweet Pea's Truck Stop, I did have to call upon Gandhi and Flannery's middle school teacher, Phoebe Faulkner, who loved to quote Tennessee Williams and his line about how the one unforgivable thing is "deliberate cruelty" - so we are aiming for our better selves again today as we leave Oklahoma City. Maybe we didn't find grace in Milledgeville, but maybe it's waiting for us in Albuquerque.

I do have a new bumpersticker that says:

"When in Rome, do as you done in Milledgeville."

That sums it up for me.

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Happy Mother's Day [May. 13th, 2012|08:22 am]
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Happy Mother's Day, Mom!

I love this picture...we don't look like we've just driven from Alabama to San Diego in five days.

I love you xxoo

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UAB CREATIVE WRITING STUDENTS' LITERARY SALON [May. 8th, 2012|02:59 pm]
On May 9th (tomorrow night) Creative Writing Students at UAB will be sharing their stories at Matthew's Bar & Grill in downtown Birmingham. Some are coming early to make it back to an exam in Arthurian Legends, and others are coming after work or exams, but it will be a night of new stories. Here is what the program looks like and everyone is welcome. Students will be reading very short flash excerpts from either memoirs or stories. It's a lovely way to celebrate the end of the semester with them and take a deep breath and welcome summertime! (a big thanks to Bethany Mitchell and Callie Mauldin who put the program together).



Wednesday, May 9, 2012 at 5:30 p.m.
UAB CREATIVE WRITING STUDENTS LITERARY SALON
NEW VOICES IN FICTION AND CREATIVE NONFICTION
ALL ARE WELCOME!
MATTHEW'S BAR & GRILL
2208 Morris Avenue  Birmingham, AL 35203

 

 

 

Mandy Evans: Not My Fault  **early!
Mandy is on her last stretch as a Creative Writing Major/Social Psychology Minor here at UAB. Assuming everything goes well, she should graduate next Spring. She isn't quite sure what she wants to do yet, but writing will definitely be a part of it.

 

Rob Mitchell: The Citrus by the Sea **early!

Rob is still in his undergraduate studies pursuing a degree in English with a literature concentration with a minor in creative writing. 

 

Clark Davis: Burying the Hatchet (Into Someone Else) ** (Early)

If Clark did not write he would be a lawyer. Thank God he has a few stories to tell.

 

Jason Walker: 80  *early

Jason Walker will soon be a senior at UAB, majoring in English with a concentration in Creative Writing. Next fall, he's going to start an Honors Thesis that will combine poetry and short-short stories. "80" is forthcoming in the online journal NAP. 

 

Whit Freeman: Opportunity Not Taken     *** early

Whit Freeman is a political science major with a minor in English. He has been writing non-fiction for five months now and really likes it. He likes a good 750-word piece short story because it leads to those ahh-hah moments in his own writing. He believes short, simple, well-written stories that reflect individuality and that capture raw emotions are the essential pieces of empathy and humor.

 

Cody Wood: The Monk and Me  **early

Cody Wood will graduate in May with a degree in English Literature. Starting in Fall 2012, he will begin a Masters of Divinity program at Beeson Divinity School in Birmingham.

Jessica Griggs: Nightfall  **early

“To view the world in a grain of sand/and heave in a wildflower/to hold infinity in the palm of my hand/and eternity in an hour.” Blake’s poem is kind of what Jessica’s life is like.

 

Cheyenne Taylor: Begin

Cheyenne is now a senior at UAB majoring in English and Creative Writing. She'll be starting an Honors Thesis in poetry this fall. She will make a living at writing some day. Or starve. Whichever comes first.

 

Neil Bagley: The Bloody Bouncy Blondie Bunny Show

Neil Bagley is a Junior at UAB. He is pursuing a degree in English and Film Studies and intends to work freelance after graduating. He spends a lot of time in other realities and strives to share his experiences with his readers.

 

Sarah Feigl: Untitled
Sarah is nearly finished with her undergraduate degree in Creative Writing, and will be applying to law school in the fall.

 

Andreas Fortunis: Black Dawn

Andreas is a Junior at UAB double majoring in Psychology and Creative Writing.  His fiction focuses primarily on psychological drama and fantasy with historical elements.  He plans to pursue a counseling or clinical psychology career and write professionally when the opportunity allows.

 

Charles Lively: The Return of Seaman O'Channel
Chip has a Bachelor's in Political Science from UAB. He spends most of his time reading books and surfing the web. Occasionally, he attends English classes to stave off dementia.

 

Herbert Colen IV: A Glimpse of Sky
Herbert Colen IV is a Junior majoring in creative writing. He specializes in sci-fi, fantasy, and the paranormal. He currently writes for an online gaming website.

Ashley Jones: The Twentieth Year

Ashley M. Jones is graduating in May with a BA in English with a concentration in Creative Writing and a minor in Spanish.  In the fall, she will start her MFA in poetry at Florida International University.

 

Daniel Simmons: Larissa's Front Door Chapter 1: The First Step

After four years, Daniel will finally receive a BA in English with a concentration in Creative Writing and a minor in Military Science. When the time comes, he will journey to Lawton, Oklahoma to begin his career in the Army as an Active Duty officer. He grew up loving history, drawing, and reading fantasy stories. He plans to make use of all of these as a writer.

 

Jessica Metcalfe: Untitled
Jessica is a science major with an identity crisis. She graduated from UAB with a degree in Biology last spring, but hangs around because she loves writing fiction just that much.

 

Sarah Afgan: Arranged Marriages at the Local Pizza Hut

 Sarah is graduating this month hopefully with her degree in English and minor in Psychology. She also aspires to be as witty as one of the great female writers and someday partake in a literary war of words similar to that of Alexander Pope and Mary Montague, because that means you have made it as a writer. Sarah likes to shed light on a hidden world; that of a Pakistani Muslim girl with the last name Afgan, born and raised smack in the middle of Birmingham Alabama. She lives in a modest house with her three-year-old Sophia and husband Jonathan Smith.

 

Halley Cotton: Runoff: The Ground Beef That Got Away

Halley writes because she cannot imagine a world without stories and when she’s too busy to read she’s not too busy to dream.

 

Bethany Mitchell: Plastic Corpses

Bethany Mitchell will soon receive her BA in journalism with a minor in creative writing. She currently is the Fiction/Nonfiction Editor of Aura Literary Arts Review and is an intern at Poem Memoir Story. Her published work has appeared in publications such as The Trussville Tribune, Aura Literary Arts Review, The Pioneer, and Wingspan Literary Arts Review. She will begin her pursuit for a MA in English in the fall at UAB.

 

Hannah Sanders: Old Times

Hannah is an English major and pre-materials science and engineering major at UAB who wants to be a novelist one day.

 

Mariah Gibson: The Disappearing Chocolate Milk

Mariah likes writing nonfiction essays that embarrass everyone involved, mainly myself.

 

Matthew Whitehurst: On the Pleasures of Racism or Hollow Point

Matthew is lewd and crude with his writing.

 

John Saad: The Terminal

John fills up on bread.

  

Caroline Sallee: My First Job  

Caroline is a happy stepmother of two cats.

 

Sarah Cooper: Michael

Sarah is graduating with a degree in creative writing and a minor in film studies.

 

Amber Hill: Tales from Lower Alabama

Amber is a biology major with a creative writing minor. She plans to obtains her Master’s in Education and teach high school science.

 

 William Filhiol: Cat and Turtle Stories

William Filhiol is a standing senior at the University of Alabama Birmingham and still has no idea what he wants to do with his life. He enjoys writing contrived short stories and long walks on the beach.

 

Brad Campbell: Waking Up

Brad is a senior at UAB and is majoring in Communication in Broadcasting with a minor in Creative Writing. He knows anything dealing with Batman and Star Wars. He plans on working in the game or film industry in some way.  

Tonesa Jones: The Admiral

Tonesa is from Birmingham majoring in English and minoring in psychology at UAB. She was born into a family of natural storytellers and enjoys the challenge of writing these stories for everyone else to read.

 

Mollie Hawkins: Major 1 of 9 ***PUT NEAR END—arrives at 6:45 at earliest

Mollie Hawkins enjoys writing about things she shouldn’t.

 

Tyler Dennis: (did not provide a title—doesn’t know what he’s reading yet)

Tyler Dennis is a junior at UAB. He's just trying to graduate.

 

Kathryn Thagard: The Roadtrip Syndrome  *very end

“Always begging for more cowbell.”

 

Joi Webb: Untitled  **very end-can’t arrive until 7
Joi Webb is a senior graduating with a degree in English - Creative Writing (three days!). She hopes to teach some day as well as continue to write, and hopes it will not take forever to pay off these student loans.


 



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SLOSS WORKSHOP DAY WITH UAB STUDENTS & STORY EXCERPTS [Apr. 20th, 2012|10:17 am]

SLOSS WORKSHOP DAY – WRITING IN PLACE, SUNDAY, April 15, 2012
http://www.slossfurnaces.com/
http://www.visitvulcan.com/

Inspired by Michael Martone's, Adam Vines, and Tina Harris' "writing-in-place" workshops, I took my fiction and creative nonfiction workshops to Sloss Furnaces. This was the assignment and below are some of their wonderful story excerpts. More stories to come as they arrive from the other workshop writers.

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Write either the draft of a creative nonfiction or fiction story that includes the following vocabulary in bold below, and include at least one of the Alabama authors or characters too. I’ve also included an article about “MAN FOOD” from a cookbook about SLOSS recipes from the University of Alabama Press. If writing fiction, write from the POV of a Sloss worker, wife, kid, or even a teenager scaling the towers after midnight or any other character that strikes your fancy. If writing nonfiction, imagine what is was like to live here and work here and put yourself in the story – why are you walking around SLOSS on almost tax day in April 2012 and what all do you see? Who else is here today? First dates? Kids? Feral cats? Include the following vocabulary whether you’re writing fiction or nonfiction and at least one or two of the foods mentioned in the article by Don Noble below.

Have fun! Roam around, stare, take notes, eavesdrop, study, and ruminate…do some storycatching!

VOCABULARY: SLOSS, PIG IRON, BLAST FURNACES, VULCAN, SHOTGUN HOUSE, MAGIC CITY, TRAIN, HOBO, BRACKISH, MUSKRAT STEW

FAMOUS CHARACTERS BY ALABAMA WRITERS: SMOKEY LONESOME, ATTICUS FINCH, HOLLY GOLIGHTLY

AUTHORS: FANNIE FLAGG, HARPER LEE, TRUMAN CAPOTE, WAYNE GREENHAW, MARK CHILDRESS, HELEN KELLER, RICK BRAGG.

MAN FOOD, a cookbook available at SLOSS GIFT SHOP

FROM TUSCALOOSA NEWS, 2008
COOKBOOK CATERS TO REAL MEN by Don Noble


The University of Alabama Press is in the process of publishing a number of food-related books, cookbooks and near cookbooks. Recently the press released 'Bright Star,' the history of the 100-year-old restaurant in Bessemer, with recipes. This volume, 'Man Food,' comes from a more unusual source, the small in-house magazine published by the Sloss-Sheffield Co. of Birmingham in the heyday of the city's iron and steel industries.

The Sloss-Sheffield Co. produced high-quality pig iron. This was sold to various manufacturers around the country and made into hundreds of products. The in-house magazine, 'Pig Iron Rough Notes,' dealt mostly with technical matters, such as innovations in the foundry trade, but also discussed cast iron products used for cooking, such as heavy bean pots, skillets and 'barbecue irons' to be set on charcoal grills. Beginning in about 1939 the editor, Russell Hunt, began soliciting recipes to add to his magazine. What did users cook in the pots and skillets? And, since most people in the pig iron business were men, Hunt stressed outdoor cookery. Real men loved the great outdoors and enjoyed cooking 'at informal stag or mixed parties, preferably out-of-doors, and at camps.'

He reassured American men (the French presumably would not have needed such reassurances) that 'cookery is become an art, a noble science; cooks are gentlemen.' Furthermore, 'An Alabama barbecue is a thing of beauty, a joy forever — but the piece de resistance is the Brunswick stew.' In this little paperback, there are several recipes for Brunswick stew, and, as you might expect, recipes for fried catfish, barbecued chicken, fried chicken, baked beans, hobo stew, beef stew, jambalaya, catfish chowder, mullet stew and beef kabobs.

Most of these recipes and their ingredients are pretty tame. There are a couple of recipes using wild game, however. The recipe for muskrat stew begins, 'Skin, decapitate, and remove entrails, being careful not to puncture musk gland.' Yes, indeed. Be careful. Realizing that not everybody has easy access to muskrats, Hunt adds that veal or lean pork may be substituted with 'excellent results.'

You may not have muskrats in your yard, but you will have squirrels. In fact, now more than ever. For Tennessee squirrel stew, first kill 12 squirrels. Hunt writes, 'This is a modest bag for a morning hunt in many southern localities.'

I was surprised to see that many of these recipes called for olive oil, whether alone or with other fats. I would have said olive oil was not yet known in these parts, but obviously, that's wrong. There are several recipes for coffee — hunter's coffee, camp coffee, which all call for ingredients Starbuck's knows not of — ingredients such as three eggs with shells, a teaspoon of mustard and one of salt. Briefly, salad is mentioned, but with a warning: 'Not so long ago, all salads were considered effeminate. ...

But times do change. Nowadays, men are not sissies simply because they like — even demand — a green salad at luncheon.' Whew! There are recipes for fried green tomatoes and sweet potato griddlecakes, pancakes, hushpuppies, and even one for spoon bread, which is pretty rare. The book closes with a recipe for 'Cornbread Southern Style.' Besides the obvious ingredients, this recipe calls for one tablespoon of sugar. Since 'Pig Iron Rough Notes' was edited by an Alabamian and published in Alabama and the recipe came from J. M. Brown of Edgewater, Alabama, I take it to be the last, final, definitive word on cornbread. One tablespoon sugar.

 

EXCERPTS FROM SLOSS STORIES BY UAB CREATIVE WRITING STUDENTS

 

The Legend of Tumbleweed the Self Replicating Hobo AKA The Sloss Problem Solver

A story excerpt

by Hannah Sanders

            "The gas is a-leakin' and George is up there!" Bob, the pig-iron worker, said. He jerked his head up towards the black smoke overhead. George had climbed up Big Alice, the highest blast furnace to do some work.

            "What? We just checked it yesterday and it wasn't leakin'," Joe, the foreman, said.

            "He goin' to die if we don't help him," Bob said. He grabbed a gas mask and climbed up the thin ladder steps. His size fourteen shoes tried not to slip.

            "Gas leak! Gas leak! Halt all production!" Joe screamed.

Now Tumbleweed, the hobo, was lingering by the coal train when he heard all of the commotion. He carried a copy of Harper Lee's To Kill a Mockingbird with him wherever he went. Certain words and phrases were underlined and he claimed Harper Lee had secret messages for humanity throughout the book. He was working on decoding them. All of the workers loved Tumbleweed and his strange stories. He solved many industrial problems and he ran errands for them. The boss couldn't hire Tumbleweed because he was in the middle of a hiring freeze. He also didn't believe a hobo could solve all of those complex problems. Tumbleweed even told him that he learned Calculus in kindergarten. So Tumbleweed slept in a different place in the factory every night.

            "What's goin' on, Joe?" Tumbleweed asked.

            "The gas is a-leakin' and George is up there," Joe said.

            "That's bad. It's that experimental methane gas too, XYZ-00. That'll kill us all and the whole city too," Tumbleweed said.

            "Tumbleweed, you gotta help us!" Joe said.

            "Well, shut down the entire plant," Tumbleweed said.

Tumbleweed wasn't from the Magic City. He wasn't even from the planet. He had powers that allowed him to be in several places at one time. After this rescue he would need a muskrat salad...

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SLAG

a story excerpt

by Cheyenne Taylor

Slag.

That’s all I am, no better than slag, and he lets me know that.

“Why don’t you try an’ find some work to do, Abigail?” he asks because work is his life and if it was mine, too, everything would be easier.

            Sloss thinks it employs my husband but in fact it owns my family. Me and my family, we belong to, we’re consumed by the furnace and it leaves me no better than slag.

            My husband, they call him the stove tender. A big shot who calls the shots, how often his men need to flush me out of the iron. They ship me all over the country to build road and kitchenware. They get rid of me more often then they actually cast iron. Shame, I am a stove tender, too, but Sloss doesn’t pay me for that. I feed one of their men and two boys who’ll likely end up theirs too, if they don’t get out first. I cook on the tiny stove my husband can afford and build them all stronger.

My sister, she begs me to send her family home with pans of my cornbread. She says it’s the best she ever had, that her two little slivery children love it, too, and she wonders why it is she can never get it right. My little sister always had better things to do than watch momma in the kitchen. She was gonna move up North and do something big so she missed it. She missed one little tablespoon of sugar. She’d have had it if she’d just watched.

My little sister says sometimes she wishes she’d stayed in the Magic City, here in Birmingham, with me and my husband and our boys. Closer to family. She’s got herself an exotic husband from Scotland, a steel tycoon she says, but her children will never know their family. Steel’s good in Birmingham, she says. They could make a living here just as well. But there’s not too much magic here in this city anymore. Sloss doesn’t need 2,000 men anymore. Times are changing and Birmingham’s nothing but a big, lost lump of pig iron.

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NIGHTFALL

a story excerpt

By Jessica Griggs

            We came upon the blast furnaces of Sloss at nightfall, when Ricky and I decided to set up camp. Hungry from traveling all day, we were dripping with sweat from the summer heat and our feet were dog tired. Jimmy joined us later, with a light for the fire, which we made from the wood we had gathered upon arriving. In the distance, we could hear the roar of a train's engine on the railroads nearby and the wind rustled the leaves of the trees around us, but our fire continued to burn bright as the night grew on.

            The Magic City sure did seem to be full of promise, I thought to myself as we roasted the wild game we had caught earlier that day over the open fire in the cast iron skillet Ricky had insisted on bringing with us on the trek from home. Despite the distance and weight of the cooking instrument, he proclaimed it would make the food taste better. I didn't much mind at the time, so long as I didn't have to carry the pig iron. If he wanted to lug that enormous piece of metal, fine by me.

            "Hey, Jimmy," I hollered. "Where's that there book you found earlier by the tracks?"

            "Book? What book you talking about? I didn't find no book."

            "Course you did," I answer. "You said it had words, didn't you? It's probably what them schooled folks call novels." Jimmy just looks at me weird and scratches his head. "Did you put it in your sack? Check your sack. We need to read something smart before we go into town tomorrow, looking for work."

            Jimmy rummages through his sack, which is on the ground next to him and in the glow of the fire I can see him pull out a mangled collection of pages, all loose leaf.

            "I thought you said it was a book?" I say questioningly.

            "Well, it was at one time," Jimmy says curtly. "Look, here's the cover. It reads Capote on the front, Truman Capote. In Cold Blood by Truman Capote. You happy?"

            "I'm a gonna hurt you in cold blood, if you don't..." I tell him trailing off. Look, we best go ahead and get some sleep. We gotta get in to town at first light, because you know full well they're gonna have the dogs out tomorrow and we best have our wits about us." As I say this, Ricky stands up from his spot across from us and in the light of the fire, the metal around his ankles glints.

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A DAY AT SLOSS

an essay excerpt

By Sarah Cooper

I wandered throughout, damning myself for wearing white and flip flops and for not bringing my camera. I found myself in the underground tunnel of Sloss, the arch of my foot landing on the edge of the walkway, swaying me backwards, imagining myself landing in the red clay. Close call. I turned back and passed the red machinery there was the tiniest gleam of sunlight from a break in the tunnel. The walls were runny red muck, intermixed with a mushy green. I could see a young Orson Welles stealthily running through the looking for a stairway out. The Third Man should’ve been set in Birmingham. At night it would be lit by yellow dusty light bulbs that look as if they’ seen a decade or two. Control Rooms with cobwebbed rusty switches that beckon to be flipped just to see if they still work are graffiti-ed with words like murder spelled backwards. No one has taken advantage of this place as a film set. Chock full of history and death, it’s Birmingham’s own salvaged urban decay.

            Walking down the main drag can make you feel so insignificant. Towering iron structures that could flatten you to nothing stare down their imaginary noses and say, “Nice of you to finally join us, you’ve lived here four years now.” Behind me there’s shuffling of feet, before I hear, “You guys, I’ve almost died three times.” It’s the other Sarah and she is actually wearing tennis shoes, so I am really pressing my luck in flip flops. All the locked doors tempt me with what could possibly be stowed away. A child with his parents walks by and I realize I need to chill out with the gratuitous expletives  that are coming out of my mouth. Although, I imagine it can’t be any worse than what the last words were of so many of the men that died working hard for an honest living.   

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From Sloss Furnace
By Daniel Simmons,
a story excerpt

            As I walked day after day on my long pilgrimage, the road gave way to a path of dirt that gave way to a wooded trail. I had lost sight of the bald eagle that flew overhead, accompanying me on my journey. The sun had deserted me and given me over to the creatures that moaned and cried to the moon.

            I had not the heart to stay in these woods, but my strength had fled from me. A great voice called from below the earth, “Release the weights from your back. The hour is at hand where thou must face the most treacherous road to find asylum.”

            “Please, whoever you are, show yourself to me and show me the road of which you speak.” Desperate though I was, I could not rise from my back. Appearing before me stood a being that seemed carved out of rock and cast in steel. The fire around him was his own, and illuminated all. “What should I call you?” I asked, out of breath.

            “I once was revered as a god. I forged that which was held in Jupiter’s hand. Alas, my furnace no longer resides in the heavens.”

            I asked, “By what means have you been cast out from so high?”

            He reached out his hand and said, “Leave your bag and burden where it lies and I shall teach you.” So I did, and swiftly he led me away from the moaning behind me and to a metal gate that read, “Foundation of the Magic City.” My new teacher turned to me and said, “Beyond the gates is where all manner of steel is forged, of metal and spirit. In these fires you will find yourself anew. You may refuse, however, if you do, you face what is behind us alone.”

Ashley Jones

Sloss stories/poems

 

Sloss

 

Birmingham is a

pile of old

pig iron.

It has dust.

It is hard and

it is sharp.

It is familiar

and alone.

 

This is the kind

of iron that begins things.

 

Metal bones

slathered in pretty skin.

 

Birmingham is not fit

for company.

It isn’t dusted and

sparkling,

our best china is still

tucked away

in cabinets.

 

Even now,

we’re not all the way

moved in.

Our skirts are pulled up

and the furnace is showing.

We’re unchaste and raw,

and we like it.

 

 

The Furnaces
by Ashley Jones

            I can’t say with confidence that I’m a proper Southerner.  I know about civil rights and I know about fried chicken, and maybe that’s enough.  I say y’all and I like pound cake, and I know how to eat cornbread for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  I know that mystical loneliness that Harper Lee wrote about and I think I know what it means to be hospitable.  I’ve seen all the landmarks, and I’ve tried to connect with them all, but I don’t think my memories are always the right ones.  When I think of 16th St. Baptist Church, I think of laughter canned and put away for the winter.  When I think of the Birmingham Civil Rights Institute, I think of being so alone under the white cloak or the black paint.  And when I think of Sloss Furnaces, I think of friendship.  I don’t ponder the heat of melted pig iron or the strange, sharp crack of men’s bones when they fell from or were crushed by machines.  Instead, I think of a memory it has taken my nine years to forget and remember.

            My seventh grade trip to Sloss Furnaces is something that made me alone, or maybe a loner.  I didn’t have many friends in seventh grade—some of the older creative writers talked to me, and there was always my sister, but no one in my seventh grade creative writing class—because we had departments at ASFA, like college—talked to me.  They were giddy and clever like the kids on “Saved by the Bell,” and they laughed a lot.  On this trip, I was, as usual, alone.  They ate lunch at an old table and I watched them from the stage.  I felt like a pile of wood, or maybe a stone.  I wanted to rub their laughter on my throat and make it come out of my own mouth.  I wanted wit—I wanted to be more than the Screech to their Zach Morris.  But they just laughed on and on.

            I tried to find something striking about my surroundings, the pig iron and pipes and the metal that made Birmingham.  But all I could see were people who were alone and people who weren’t.  The men who worked here, sweated here, were lonely men.  The dark tunnels and open spaces were places where people like me could hide.  This was a history of people who had no one.  I must have looked like a real writer that day—all I had was a notebook and a thoughtful look: furrowed brow and sad eyes, the ultimate writer’s cliché.  Then, it was lunch time.  We ate chicken salad sandwiches and potato chips, because that’s what southerners eat—chicken and potatoes—we’d just wrapped and fried ours for picnicking.  I ate quickly and wandered away from the table.  That’s when Mr. Hill, the janitor/bus driver found me.  He had also wandered away from where he was supposed to be.  The school bus must have been a lonely place for the bus driver during field trips.  He asked me how I was and why I wasn’t talking to the other kids.  I’m not sure what I said, but it was something about how I was different and they didn’t talk to me or some strange blurb about my unique-ness, and he just said that it was okay.  It was all okay.  We sat and we talked until it was time to go back to school.

            We all got back on the bus—the short bus, a source of endless jokes by our public school counterparts.  I sat alone, just as I did on the way to Sloss.  But it was all okay.  Years later, I was certain, things would be different. And they were.

 

Reflections on The Bones of the Magic City
By Sarah Afghan

Lost in this one-hundred-thirty-year-old industrial maze makes me wonder what it felt like for those men; the men whose pictures and names are forever engraved in metal. I can hear their voices calling out from the rusting dark stairwells and starkly lit hallways. I can see the sweat dripping from their dirt covered faces, the expressionlessness they were used carrying, not out of anger or sadness, but out of necessity. They were men attempting to provide for themselves, their mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, and wives.  Their memory brushes past me in a haunting frenzy. Their history sits, rusted, left in dark shadows for Halloween fodder. I wonder what those men would have thought as they looked down on modern Birmingham; the city they helped to create through blood, through sweat, through long nights of repetitive, backbreaking work.

Would they appreciate the urban splendor we so often find cool to capture on our iphones and post later on Facebook? Would those men have dropped their heavy metal tools like Atlas? Just as Atlas they carried their back breaking burdening tools. Would they have dropped the forged pig iron in anger at the site of the people dressed as Freddy Cougar and zombies or the smelly teenagers drunk and high standing in lines to feel fear? Would they have said “They do not know real fear. They do not know what it feels like to have to work to death. What it feels like to be the sole man in charge of monitoring the Boiler Room day in and day out feeling the charring steam day and night, night and day”.

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"Life Tonight" by Anna Kirwan and marzipan and fairy plates [Apr. 19th, 2012|10:26 am]

I heard Anna's poem, "LIFE TONIGHT" read on the radio last week, and I had to order it. It arrived this morning, and I've typed it at the end of this entry.

Here is the radio tribute to her: http://whmp.com/pages/8875192.php? 

And here is a beautiful tribute to all her beautiful work.

WRITER ANNA KIRWAN REMEMBERED FOR GIFTS WITH WORDS, CHILDREN
http://www.gazettenet.com/2012/04/18/valley-writer-remembered-for-gifts-with-words-children

Here is yet another gorgeous tribute about Anna Kirwan by Fred Contrada
http://www.masslive.com/opinion/index.ssf/2012/04/anna_kirwan_lived_the_writers.html

Jane Yolen is Anna's literary executor, which means more of Anna's beautiful words will get out into the world.

Her memorial service is May 12.

Anna's son, Robin writes:

"Friends, as you may know my mother, Anna Catherine Kirwan passed away on April 8th 2012.There will be a memorial service at the Unitarian Society Church in Northampton, MA on May 12th 10-12. All are welcome."

* * *

A long time ago, Anna sent Norah little fairy plates, knives, forks, spoons and marzipan. And every night, Norah had to write a letter to the fairies in a fairy journal that Anna sent along too. We helped Norah slice up slivers of marzipan on the tiny silver plates for the fairies to eat, and those little tiny fairy place settings sparked in Norah the desire to go on fairy hunts with her big sister, Lucy. Norah and Kiffen then started naming the fairies in the backyard. "Bernie Banana Leaf, Hattie Hibiscus, Figgy Frances, Patty Pecan, Alice Aluminium, and even Avacado Al." Anna remembered what it was like to be a child, and she reminded me, as a mother, to pay attention because Norah was tiny with a big brother and sister, and days and nights were wildly busy with teenage life. But Anna's gift made me slow down and watch Norah play, which in turn made me make the Weems' children in my Maggie Valley novels go on fairy hunts too. Even though I never met her in person Anna listened - what a gift to know how to listen and be still. She made me remember to listen and be still.

I love this poem by Anna.

LIFE TONIGHT published in her book, THE FIRST THING, Adastra Press

"Life Tonight" by Anna Kirwan

One thing she do with
her life tonight, she can make
a list;
of prizes she has not won;
of things she has not done,
can not do, will not do;
a list of things she is not
as important as; a list of people
who did it already, won it already,
got there first, have first
right, better
hearts, hair, bodies, words,
itineraries,
morals,
prospects,
attitudes;
a list of names;
she is not as important as;
a list of attitudes
she is not as important as;
a list of principles
she of course subscribes to;
a list of subscriptions
that have not won her a million:
a list of millions.
She does not know
what to do with the list -
mail it to the North Pole,
wrap it around a bottle of
gin in the freezer, burn it
at midnight, burn it
as sunrise, weep over it,
bury it with a dead animal
in the garden.
See if anything can grow
from a list of futures
she can't
remember, she can't count on,
she can't pay for, a list
she dares not keep tabs on,
a list she dares not dream about,
a list she dreams about
obsessively,
continually,
resignedly,
a signed list,
a list of omens,
a list of luck charms,
a list of millions,
infinities,
immeasurables.
A list of one.
This is me.
I am not/
I am.
What else?
Remember this. At least,
make a list.

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Lists on Monday Morning... [Apr. 16th, 2012|11:10 am]
I am reading Dinty W. Moore's THE MINDFUL WRITER, and I'm thinking about Anna Kirwan's poem about lists that I can't seem to find online, but I've ordered her book so I can have it. I am finding it impossibly hard to write these days, but I listened to a beautiful tribute to Anna Kirwan who passed away on Easter Sunday at this link,  http://whmp.com/pages/8875192.php (4/11: We celebrate the life of Valley author Anna Kirwan, her poetry and novels and the love of writing she gave so many -- with Pat Schneider, Patty MacLachlan, Leslea Newman, Mike Ryan, Rochelle Wildfong, and Mary-Beth O'Shea.) It's a lovely and beautiful tribute to Anna's stories and poems and how much she gave to her students.

One of the speakers read Anna's poem about "lists," and the whole meaning I got was - even if you can't write/won't write/struggle/fret/worry/gnash/stew/etc at this particular time, you can still make a list. You can write a list. I wish I had that poem to clarify, but it's on the way. Anna was my husband's cousin, a children's author, poet, writer, and friend of several of my friends, and we never got to meet. I always thought there would be time - a family reunion, Anna visiting her sisters in California whom I see regularly, so many myriad ways, but it didn't happen although she was a tremendous support to me as I became a children's author. She took the time to write to me when GENTLE'S HOLLER was published, and she even wrote a paper about the book for her MFA in Children's Writing. And I was so grateful to her. I am so grateful to her. And I miss her. I'm mad at myself for not knowing or paying attention to time and just assuming there would be plenty of it. I was wrong.

So today, in honor of Anna, and since I'm struggling to write these days, I will simply make a list of memories and snatches of conversation, trying to clear the cobwebs and find the courage to write again. May is coming, May is a good month for me. I don't teach in May, and it's too soon to drive back to Los Angeles with Norah, who is in school until the end of May and playing Juno in THE TEMPEST for the "Bards of Birmingham."

So in honor of Anna Kirwan, if you're struggling to be creative today, to scratch down some words, make a list. Maybe it will help.

* * *

A RANDOM LIST ON A BIRMINGHAM MONDAY MORNING IN APRIL, 2012
I never knew what Half & Half was until my friend Terri, a new mother like me in 1989, invited us to dinner and served coffee after an Indian meal with half & half heated on the stove.

My parents drank their coffee black, Maxwell House or Folgers, in a metal drip pot on the stove. My grandparents drank it the same way only with a spoonful of Coffee-Mate.

Are you going to stay in Alabama or go back to Los Angeles? What's the plan?

The tenure file is being gathered - should that really be stated as such in passive voice?
Should it say instead: Gather your tenure file or Gather thee files (for tenure) while ye may... :)

Is it any wonder my concentration is shot?

Olive needs a walk up along Vulcan Trail daily.

So do I.

Norah wrote a Sestina on Sunday night and had this to say: "I realize mundane experiences come in handy with poems."

Once the bug man knocked on the door and called out "Bug Man! Bug Man," and he came inside to philosophize as he sprayed the bug poison around: "Lady, you know what is sad? An ugly girl. Now a guy, he can be ugly, take me, ugly. It don't matter. But a girl? It's just sad. Did I tell you I've started teaching the ladies at my church how to make quilt purses? They only knew how to quilt quilts."

Are you going to stay in Alabama or go back to Los Angeles? What's the plan?

My novel, THE FIFTH GRADE LIFE OF JACK GETTLEFINGER, went out to four publishers on November 21, 2011.
One has said no, and the others have not responded. Do I interpret the silence as "no thank you," I wonder?

My picture book, NOTHING FANCY ABOUT KATHRYN & CHARLIE is being published by Mockingbird Publishers.
Lucy is doing the illustrations. :) I am thrilled for this book to have a home and grateful to the writers at Kindling Words West (and the loving world of the Mabel Dodge Lohun House) who helped me shape the story and to my agent, who saw the possibility in the beautiful friendship of Kathryn Tucker Windham and Charlie Lucas.

Kiffen bought me a front porch swing from MISSION POSSIBLE.

I need to find a notary, so I can prove I'm a citizen, so I can talk to a school in Shelby County. Where are notaries?
Where do they live? Where do I find them? (UPDATE: I found one, a no-nonsense guy, tattooed and pierced and capable.)

I wish I had a bottle tree of blue bottles in my front-yard.

I read Cheryl Strayed's WILD and wondered if I could ever be as brave and bold as her in writing. She loves Alice Munro and Michelle Shocked as do I...I have seen Michelle Shocked in LA and Alabama.

Are you going to stay in Alabama or come back to Los Angeles? What's the plan?

The most comforting breakfast - hot coffee with half & half and pop-tarts.

Why am I dreaming of armadillos?

And Great Danes?

I heard an amazing lecture by Professor Andy Orchard of Trinity College in Canada on: "The Riddle of Writing and the Writing of Riddles in Anglo-Saxon England."

Riddle: I bear my mother, and am born from her;
Sometimes I'm bigger than her, sometimes smaller.

Answer: Night & Day

We owe approximately $100,000 in student loans for our children's college educations. It's more than that probably, but that's as high my brain can bear it.

Why do I always think of the line from FIDDLER ON THE ROOF when Tevya asks God, "Would it be so terrible if I had a small fortune?"

I have 201 pages of HOP THE POND written, a kind of reverse MY FAIR LADY, of a Tennessee girl who gets re-educated in England but her family wants her to come back to get a job at the World's Fair in Knoxville, 1982.

I have some mixed-up-everything-but-the-kitchen-sink 40-50 pages written of VULCAN'S FIRE, a new children's novel about a banshee, Vulcan, and HB 56, Alabama's Immigration Law.

I bought wind-chimes in Appalachicola, Florida.

Kiffen hung our Turkish plates on the wall in Alabama.

Flannery has never been to Alabama, but he might arrive at the end of May to help me drive back to LA for the summer, "might" being the operative word.

Norah and her friend, Seabrook, loved "SENSE AND SENSIBILITY" because actors from HARRY POTTER, TITANIC, NANNY MCPHEE, LOVE, ACTUALLY, and HOUSE were all in the film. 

Lucy took her first Greyhound Bus trip in the spring - Chattanooga-Atlanta-Birmingham - and eavesdropped on ex-cons comparing their prison tattoos of crowns on their biceps in the Atlanta Depot while she read THE GLASS MENAGERIE.

Are you going to stay in Alabama or go back to Los Angeles? What's the plan?

I miss these people in the world: Anna Kirwan, Robert Hollister, Chris Clark, A.B. Blass, Kathryn Tucker Windham,
Jude Mahaffy, Hannah Frey, Jack Rohman, Catherine Garcia, Michael Madden, Jeanne Lueke.

I miss many more.

I took my students to Sloss Furnances yesterday, and they wrote such beautiful poetry and stories about blast furnaces, Vulcan, the Magic City, Muskrat Stew (Inspired by a new book called MAN FOOD) pig iron, brackish water, trains, Truman Capote and Helen Keller and Harper Lee.

In Dinty W. Moore's book, THE MINDFUL WRITER, he quotes August Wilson:
"Confront the dark parts of yourself. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing."

I miss my writers' group in Silver Lake.

Tonight, "Mad Men."

It's time to walk Olive before it rains.

And then, a notary.

Maybe.

Dinty Moore writes: "Exercise the muscles that compassionately open the heart. In your writing and in your life."

Amen.
 













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"500 TAMALES" for Michelle and Catherine Garcia and their brother, Renel too [Apr. 10th, 2012|08:02 pm]
I've been so staggered by the month of April that I haven't had time to post any of the pictures or stories from Arkansas or Florida, but the month of May is coming soon, and I have visions of time opening up like a great font with long days of writing before Norah finishes school, and we drive back west to Los Angeles with Olive for the summer. Flannery might even help drive, which would mean it would be his first trip to Alabama. (He's the only one in the family who hasn't been to Alabama. Our holdout, and he really wants to see Bottle Tree and other places we've described to entice him here.)

But then today, I heard from a very old friend, and I knew I couldn't wait to post. Catherine Garcia's little sister, Michelle, is Norah's age, 13, and her big sister, Catherine, was a year younger than Lucy. I think Catherine would have been twenty-years-old today, April 10th, since she was born in 1992. That doesn't seem possible. My essay about her was first published in HOMEBOY REVIEW in 2008, edited by Leslie Schwartz. Michelle was so tiny when I wrote it that I never even thought about her growing up to read it herself and writing me a letter.

Here is Michelle's letter that arrived today on Catherine's birthday. 

I read the 500 tamales story i loved it!!!! Hey Kerry, thanks for writing this...to be honest I didn't even know this was here, until my mom said that there was a story about my big sister, Catherine, as she talked on the phone. As soon as she said that, I looked it up. As I read it, it made me laugh at the part when my dad wet my brother and me so we would smile. It also brought me to tears when it said we all put a flower on Catherine's coffin. It's all as I remember. Thank You again for writing this kerry, I love you and I miss you a lot and hope to see you and your family soon. Please tell Norah I said hi and really miss her too. I would have commented before but I thought it would be sweet to comment on my sister's birthday today.
-love,
Michelle Garcia

P.S. Happy Birthday Catherine and I'm missing you so much!





 
FIVE-HUNDRED TAMALES

by Kerry Madden

For Catherine Garcia

And for my husband, Kiffen,
who has been a teacher for LA Unified School District for twenty years.


Do the stories offer comfort to a child who is dying? What stories will offer the most solace? Will the child dream in the land of the stories? Maybe you should just whisper dolphin stories into Catherine’s ear the way your husband, her fifth grade teacher, whispered Anansi stories to her one night? Catherine loved dolphins…Find the best stories for Catherine, the girl who loved dolphins.

* * *

In the spring of 2003, Catherine Garcia was a week from graduating with her fifth grade class at Betty Plasencia School in Echo Park in Los Angeles. She began to feel sick at the school picnic on a Friday. They thought she had the flu, but by the following Monday, she was in Children’s Hospital on life support, diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. Visitors poured in to comfort the family as the doctors predicted she wouldn’t wake up, but after surgeons relieved some of the pressure in her brain, Catherine woke up talking. When she was strong enough, the doctors performed surgery and managed to get some of the tumor, but not all of it. Still, Catherine began to recover and started rounds of chemotherapy, radiation, physical and occupational therapy. That’s when we began spending more time with her at Children’s Hospital on Sunset Boulevard.

I remember the first time we drove along Sunset Boulevard in 1988. We were twenty-six, and we had moved to Los Angeles sight unseen from Georgia pregnant with our son, Flannery. It was a rainy Saturday, our first real day in Hollywood, and we walked the streets around our Valentino Place apartment off of Melrose and soon found ourselves at the corner of Sunset and Vine. It was a shock to see that the streets I’d only heard about in movies truly existed. Our plans were simple then. We had no money, no health insurance, but Kiffen would become an actor, and I would write for film or television - wherever I could get a job because, after all, I had an MFA in Playwriting from the University of Tennessee.

Of course, none of it happened the way we planned…

But this essay is about Catherine, one of my husband’s students – the one none of us will ever forget. After she got sick, we’d sometimes visit Catherine together at Children’s Hospital, but mostly we went in shifts. I usually went during the day with any or all of our three children. They each got to know Catherine in their own way. Flannery, then 15, read her HARRY POTTER, and he read it the right way. When I read HARRY POTTER, I caught him rolling his eyes at my mispronunciations, so I switched to WIND IN THE WILLOWS and picture books like SWAMP ANGEL, FALLING UP, THE ADVENTURES OF FROG & TOAD, THE LITTLE PRINCE, and STONE GIRL, BONE GIRL.

Norah, five at the time, always climbed onto the bed with Catherine, who would smile at her and say, “Hi Princess,” and, Norah loved that Catherine knew she was a princess. Catherine also loved dolphins. During her recovery, her hospital room was filled with posters of dolphins swimming in cobalt blue oceans. Norah drew her pictures of roses, fairies, and hearts. Our daughter, Lucy, who was 13 that year, described middle school to Catherine, and how she planned to take her around King Middle School when she felt well enough to go.

During our visits, I would watch Catherine’s mother, Deysi, and think about her beautiful name and wonder why she spelled it that way. Deysi spoke more English than I spoke Spanish, but mostly we could understand each other. Sometimes, Catherine translated our questions or we would laugh at my mix of Spanglish. Dasysi’s husband was Romeo, and I learned how he taught Catherine to speak on the CB radio to truckers in Mexico, Guatemala, and El Salvador.

At the age of five, Catherine gave herself the CB handle: “Estrellita” which means “Little Star,” and I imagined a tiny girl swinging her legs at the kitchen table while conversing in Spanish to truckers in three or four different countries.

By the end of the summer, Catherine was pronounced well enough to go home. Fall passed quickly, and Kiffen would take the kids to visit Catherine at home on Saturdays. I was busy teaching writing workshops out of my house, so I didn’t go with them. She seemed to be doing so well, studying with a home tutor. She even went to the Long Beach Aquarium to see the dolphins and attended a dance recital. She stopped using her crutches, and it was clear she was going to get better. Her other 5th grade teacher, Dave Dobson, dropped by at Christmas, and Catherine was joking with him and said, “Hey, remember how my eye used to this?” and she twirled her finger around her eye to show him how it used roll around after her first surgery. They both laughed at her silly eye. I liked hearing the stories. It meant Catherine was getting better, and we all needed and longed for her to get well.

But sometime in the new year, things changed. We heard that Catherine was back in the hospital to have more surgeries, one to remove a tumor from her back, and there was a talk of radical chemotherapy. The doctors gave her oral chemotherapy, but it didn’t work either. From January to April, she was in and out of the hospital until they finally decided to stop all therapy and send her home.

During her stays in the hospital, we brought her Mozart CDs, which played softly in the room. I gave her jasmine lotion and massaged her arms and legs and told her she smelled like the most beautiful flowers in the world. Once after I finished a story, she sighed the sweetest sigh in her throat and said, “Sorry I’m such a sleepy head!” Then she laughed.

If I had to choose a word to describe Catherine’s mother, Deysi, during this time, I would pick “serene,” which seems impossible, but she fed, washed, and kissed Catherine with such tenderness – as if each day with her child was a gift. If Catherine called out, “Mommy,” Deysi was there, smiling down on her as if she was most beautiful girl in the world. And Deysi was always happy to see us, or, if she wasn’t, she pretended to be, because there was not a time when she didn’t smile and wave us over to the bed. “Wake up, Catherine! Look who’s here! You want a story, Catherine?”

But as more time passed, the tumor began to steal Catherine’s facial expressions, and it was also difficult to know what she could see anymore. The last time I saw her, Deysi fed her strawberries and yogurt, and Catherine chewed and swallowed but could no longer smile. Then on a Friday afternoon, I was trying to write a story for her about a jacaranda trees on the secret staircases of Silver Lake with fairies and hummingbirds when my husband called to say he had some sad news, but he couldn’t finish the sentence. Then he said that Catherine’s family had gathered around her bed at home, singing one of her favorite hymns, and then Catherine closed her eyes and was gone.

Deysi called the school and asked him to come over, and he sat with her and Romeo next to Catherine. He described the little white scarf they put around Catherine’s head and her peaceful expression. A few days later, we visited the family, and Deysi explained that the funeral would be on the following Friday and everyone would spend the night at the church, singing to Catherine and eating tamales. That’s when I learned that Deysi and Romeo met when they were three-year-olds living in El Salvador, thirty years earlier. They moved to Los Angeles in 1991, and Catherine was born two weeks before the Los Angeles riots on April 10, 1992.

As we sat in the Garcia family’s living room, Norah and Michelle, Catherine’s little sister in Norah's class, played with the doll house and made up stories the way five-year-olds do. Renel, Catherine’s brother said, “Yesterday, my Dad took us outside, cause we were feeling sad, and he squirted us with the hose to make us laugh.” Kiffen was now Renel’s teacher, and the two of them discussed how they would tell the class about Catherine together.

The church served 500 tamales at Catherine’s funeral which was held at the church called “Iglesia Luz De Vida Maranada – Fundamento De Apostles Y Profetas” down in the heart of South Central near San Pedro and 21st Street. The church was clearly once a house, but refurbished into a place of worship, and it was packed with everyone who loved Catherine, and it was overflowing with people.

When we arrived, Michelle greeted us in a sky blue dress and brought us up to see Catherine who lay in a tiny lavender coffin. Next to the coffin was her fifth grade picture - radiant smile, long brown hair thick and curly, eyes shining – inside a collage of Catherine at every stage of her life. Later, when we sat down, I realized the men were on one side, women on the other, but nobody made us move from the men’s side.

Renel talked on walkie-talkies with his friends at the funeral and hugged everyone. Earlier that week, he told his class how Catherine taught him to swim in the river in Bakersfield. I saw Catherine’s best friend, Sugey, who grew up with Catherine in the same Echo Park apartment building. I thought of Catherine’s cousin, Miladas, and her Tia Sandra, who together walked from El Salvador to Los Angeles in February, and how it took them five weeks of walking and camping and taking boats and hitching rides to finally complete their journey to be with Catherine.

I watched Catherine’s grandfather, a tiny man in a white cowboy hat and reddish hair, wiping his eyes outside the church. Teacher Dave was there in his dark blue suit and sunglasses, and I recalled how he bought her hiking boots for the 5th grade science field trip to Big Bear and brought her Fluffy, the three-headed dog from HARRY POTTER, in the hospital.

The women in the church wore white scarves and sang, and the men in their blue shirts sang, and the preacher preached a sermon of Catherine’s beauty and holiness, and after four hours of prayers and singing, Norah whispered, “Does God understand Spanish?”

We didn’t spend the whole night at the church, but we did meet there again in the morning to go to the cemetery in Inglewood. At the graveside, the jacaranda trees bloomed their lavender blossoms, and people sang and prayed some more under the cloudy sky, but when Deysi, Romeo, Renel, and Michelle placed roses on Catherine’s casket, I heard the saddest sound I’ve ever heard in my life.

A few weeks later, the school put on an arts festival, and her teachers dedicated an art sculpture called “Arbol de Vida” (Tree of Life) to Catherine's memory that will remain on permanent display at Betty Plasencia School in Echo Park. Renel made a sculpture of a deep sea diver exploring the ocean, and Michelle painted a picture of the ocean for the festival in the student gallery. There was talk of a scholarship in Catherine’s name for fifth graders who want to study dolphins or oceanography.

But I kept thinking of those 500 tamales, because I learned that it was Deysi who made them, her quick and careful hands shaping them the way she so lovingly cared for her daughter. I thought of my own mother-in-law making grits and cornbread for her own thirteen children. How did Deysi find the will and strength to make 500 tamales? She smiled when she told me and said, “I made the tamales. Did you like them? 500!” And those tamales nourished us at Catherine’s funeral, and in a way, Deysi was continuing to take care of Catherine by feeding us.

Several years have gone by, and last summer, the Garcia family made a decision to move to Kansas, but later I learned it wasn’t Kansas at all but Arkansas. Was it the way Deysi pronounced to Kiffen that he heard “Kansas” instead of “Arkansas?” Michelle and Renel have called us a few times to tell us how much they love their new home. They want to stay in touch, and I wonder what their lives are like in Arkansas. I know Renel is playing football, and I wonder how Michelle is doing in her new home. How are Deysi and Romeo?

The first "Day of the Dead" after Catherine died, Norah made an altar to celebrate her, but she mispronounced the word “altar” or heard it wrong and called it not "an altar" but "a walter," and she'd say, "I made a walter for Catherine to remember her." And we still keep Catherine’s picture on the table that was “the walter.”

Sometimes, I think of all the plans we made to live one sort of life in Los Angeles but how we wound up living a completely different one. When the jacarandas bloom each spring, I see the CB radio and a tiny girl who called herself “Estrellita,” swinging her legs at the kitchen table as she chatted to truckers driving through the night in Mexico, Guatemala, and El Salvador. She was the star guiding them home.

A JACARANDA TREE
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/0f/Jacarandatree.jpg

Kerry with her daughter, Norah...
http://blaine.org/jules/kerry%20madden1.jpg
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Florida then and now... [Mar. 21st, 2012|12:31 am]
I have a lot of ties to Florida.

I was born in Daytona Beach.

My husband, Kiffen, was born in Orlando.

Florida is the 27th state. My parents met and married on December 27, 1960 in Florida, and my grandparents were married on April 27, 1927. My father-in-law was born in 1927. My Aunt Jeanne, who always sent me books, moved to Florida and opened a hotel called "C'est La Vie By the Sea" in West Palm Beach. I think she was born on August 27th, but I could be wrong. The number 27 comes up a lot for me, but maybe I just notice it more.

Though I was born in Daytona Beach, Florida, I don't remember a thing about it. I only remember the stories like how my father coached at Father Lopez high school and a priest introduced him to my mother who didn't remember meeting him the first time, because she had her eye on grander prospects or something like that.

I do remember the Limburger cheese story about a boy I'll call Frank E. before my mother met my father.

My mother, Janis, and her best friend, Phyllis, decided to smear Limburger cheese over Frank E's fancy car.

And why?

Because Frank E. didn't ask Mom out or because Frank E. was no fun or something - not a real answer, but he did something that didn't sit well with her or Phyllis either, so before dawn on All Saints Day sometime in late 1950s, she and Phyllis sneaked out to the beach, where Frank was a lifeguard (and also lovingly and regularly tended to his vehicle.) And so while Daytona Beach slept, Mother and Phyllis proceeded to smear Limburger cheese all over Frank E.'s beloved sports car, inside and out.

Actually, I don't know if it was a sports car, but I recall the story goes that he loved his car, and after Janis and Phyllis were finished with probably the one act of vandalism they ever committed in their lives, they went to early Mass since it was All Saints Day and a Holy Day of Obligation. I like to imagine them - two pretty young girls, Janis and Phyllis, creeping up at dawn in Daytona, all in black (Phyllis even used charcoal on her face) to smear Limburger cheese all over Frank E.'s fancy car. Then they headed off to early Mass before a day of teaching second graders.

Is that right? Do I have the memory mostly right? I do know that right after Mass, the "vandals" sneaked back over the sand dunes in Daytona to spy on Frank E. who by then had all four car doors open and was scrubbing out his beloved car. Was his radio playing? What would have been playing in 1958 or 1959? Perry Como's "Catch a Falling Star" or "Yakety-Yak" by the Coasters.

Satisfied the deed was done, Janis and Phyllis went off to their teaching jobs.

This is how I recall the story anyway.

Later, Frank E, said to Mother, "Do you know what happened to me? Something terrible. Somebody smeared Limburger cheese all over my car."

Mother, straight-faced, said, "Why Frank, that's just awful. Awful. What a terrible thing to do. Who would do such a thing?"

She never cracked, not once.

And so he never knew. Then Mom met Dad, they dated, married, and I was born, and we moved to Starkville, Mississippi, another place I don't remember.

But right now I'm in Florida with my youngest daughter, Norah, and our dog, Olive, and we're staying in Cape San Blas with a dear friend, Jill, (who is also from Florida) and her dog, Pinky. So I'm trying to capture this spring break in pictures of 2012, because it really feels like old Florida in Port Saint Joe and Cape San Blas.

Norah read THE YEARLING on the way back from Apalachicola tonight...I loved hearing the words of Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings driving through North Florida.

And here are some pictures so far...

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Apalachicola gravel...reminds me of the Lucinda Williams' song "Bus to Baton Rouge," I think it's called...
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Norah drinking a phosphate - old time soda
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Old time Soda Shop
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Ice Cream lady who makes a mean phosphate :)
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Lady Louise
 
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By the sea...

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For Sale By Owner :)
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Cape San Blas

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Olive & Pinky and bacon dreams

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Jill & Norah (who is NOT drinking beer)

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The view from the porch

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A mermaid in Cape San Blas

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Jill and the Sun duking it out :) A combination of Little Edie & Big Edie a la GRAY GARDENS - "the fusion look is what it is" according to Jill.

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Ye Olde Salt House

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Apalachicola
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Today in the Delta... [Mar. 11th, 2012|08:59 pm]
I drove through Tennessee Williams' birthplace of Columbus, Mississippi, and then through Starkville home of Mississippi State Bulldogs, where my father first coached as a graduate assistant in football. Further down the road, I saw the BB King Museum in Indianola, Mississippi, a place I think BB King called home, and signs of Jim Henson's birthplace cropped up in Greenville, Mississippi. I didn't even know I was driving through these towns today or these famous birthplaces. I was only headed east aimed for Monticello, Arkansas and following the GPS directions, which took me to McFarland Ave in Tuscaloosa, which turned into 82 West most of the way to Arkansas. I crossed the Mississippi River and then it started to rain..I listened to  Bill Bryson's book, AT HOME: A SHORT HISTORY OF PRIVATE LIFE.  It is a fascinating and funny book about how we came to live in homes and the history of everything including hallways, kitchens, baths, corn, and recipes offered by Charles Dickens' wife.

http://www.randomhouse.com/features/billbryson/

And I thought about Mississippi and football and Tennessee Williams...I played Blanche in a theatre class at the University of Tennessee. I filled a Jack Daniels bottle with iced-tea and wore my roommate's white filmy graduation dress. We did short scenes of the whole play in the Humanities Building, and the kid playing the doctor who comes to have me committed could not say "Miss Dubois," no matter how many times I told him how to say it.  He would say, "Miss Du-BOISE" like in Idaho. I wanted to smack him because it's practically the last line of the play, but I had to stay in character and not correct him AGAIN while I said the famous "kindness of strangers" line as he blinked at me.

I drive back Tuesday, but I'm going to stop in Columbus, Mississippi and see where Tennessee Williams was born. 

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Plenty of church signs, but my favorite was:  Experts built the Titanic, Amateurs built the Arc. Come on inside.

Tomorrow it's storytelling with high school and college students. I'm in an antebellum B&B called the Trotter House, which was build in 1896, I think. I'll take more pictures when it stops raining, but it's a lovely sound in this old place.

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Before leaving Birmingham...

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The view from the Trotter House in Monticello Arkansas...

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Sunday morning Stadium...

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Lacy trees or lacy sky? I can't decide...
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Happy Birthday, Dad [Mar. 5th, 2012|10:12 am]
A friend of mine posted this quote about memoir at the Associated Writing Programs in Chicago this weekend:

Memoir is the art of excavating the self to illuminate the human condition.

I don't know who said it, but as I wish my father Happy Birthday today, I also have to thank him for giving me so material and informing how I write. He certainly illuminated the human condition for me. Certain phrases of my childhood never seem to leave my head as they echo the song of a man determined to be a good football coach and a father who ran a disciplined household. He was a wonderful football coach but even more than that, he loved coaching. He taught me by his example that you have to love what you do and quitting is not an option. He also taught me about failure, getting hired and fired and starting over and picking up the phone to make that call and showing up each day.

I don't know how he did it some days. He always wanted to be a head coach but that dream never came true. He became an assistant head coach and coached for 30 years and still wears his National Championship Sugar Bowl ring. I carry the lessons that he taught me in my writing life even with my books going out of print, the uncertainty of how to keep going and remain positive while waiting for editors to say yes or no, and focusing on what to write next and finding courage and hope. He taught me that the most important thing is simply to show up each day ready to work. That is what I try to do. He hated self-pity and whining more than anything. His way of dealing with disappointment was to throw himself even deeper into his work.

Going to bed at night as a child, I would fall asleep to him putting recruiting calls on his coaching credit card.  He'd say, "Operator. Credit Card Call. X512 6323 0570." That isn't the right number, but I think the syllables are correct, and the southern accent that he picked up coaching at Mississippi State as a graduate assistant never left him. It was the closest thing to a lullaby listening to him urge those high school players to consider coming to play football: Great program, building a program you can be part of it, young man, leadership, terrific facilities, a place a young man can take pride in, your accomplishments, a real honor to have you sign with us, I'll tell you what, history of winning, rebuilding the program, establish a sense of integrity and winning, you can be part of that history, we need your input and your leadership.

Here are some quotes I remember...I tell only some of the quotes to the kids in my workshops, but they always laugh and have more questions. I've talked about my father to teen moms, prisoners, the junior league, book conference panels, foster kids, literacy councils, students, and so many more. As we moved from town to town, stadium to stadium, he has given me a lifetime of stories along with a choral refrain. I'm a lucky daughter.

Joe Madden Quotes:

To an Iowa State Player: Son, you got a million dollar body and a ten-cent head.

To his children:
Yes ma'am, no ma'am, yes sir, no sir.
Get your ass in the car.
It's my way or the highway.
Get your ass in the car.
When I say jump you don't ask why, you ask "How high?"
Get your ass in the car.
Do you want to stay in the same town your whole life? What kind of life is that? Me clocking in at 5:00 p.m. to help with homework? Holy crap, what the heck kind of life is that?
Get your ass in the car.
Say good-bye. You won't even remember these people. You'll make new friends. We got ballgames to win! Now look alive. Chin up! Eyes on the future.
Get your ass in the car.
What are you talking about? Helen Keller? You're not going blind. Nobody's going blind in this house, and do you know why? Because I said so. Now, knock off the damn drama. We don't need high drama around here.
Get your ass in the car.
This is my show. One day it will be your show but right now, it's my show, slick.
Get your ass in the car.
Look alive you big turkeys!
Get your ass in the car.
What goes on in this house stays in this house.
Get your ass in the car.
You can do anything you want to do as long as you put your mind to it.
Get your ass in the car.
It's in the past. Leave it there. Look ahead now! Make a new game plan for yourself.
Get your ass in the car.
Don't show your ass in public.
Get your ass in the car.
Keep tossing your hat in the ring. Those suckers will toss it right back out, but you toss it right back in, understand me, slick?
Get the lead out!
Get your ass in the car.
No camping! We don't camp. Don't ever ask me to shave out of a coffee can.
Get your ass in the car.
We don't go to Midnight Mass in this family. We go in the morning. Got it? No discussion.
Get your ass in the car.
If you're going to go to the trouble of hiking up a hill at least have a golf club in your hand.
Get your ass in the car.
We're a football family in this house and you'd better adapt and get with the program.
Get your ass in the car.

Where's your sense of humor?
Get your ass in the car.
Think of your golf swing this way - back to the hole front to the hole. Look at how Nancy Lopez does it. Back to the hole front to the hole. Follow-through.
Get your ass in the car.
Wake up and look at the St. Louis Arch, kids! No, we're not stopping, but there it is. You've seen it. The Arch.
Get your ass in the car.
That's the stadium where the Kansas City Chiefs play. Get out of the car and look at the stadium, move it! That is something else now. There's no game today, but it's a fine stadium.
Get your ass in the car.
Three pubs to one museum. That's the rule in England.
Get your ass in the car.
If we'd known you were going to write about us we'd have been a whole nicer.


Happy Birthday, Dad.
I love you.

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